I'm currently at a retreat with my co-workers from The Meeting House. For the past year and a half, I have been working there part time as the kidmax coordinator. I look forward to these times away with other people who do my job. We share ideas and support each other. We look to God's Word to see what He wants to teach us. I cherish these times of refreshment.
Last week it dawned on me how long it has been since I've truly had time to seek God. It's been a while since I've sat down with my Bible or spent more than a couple of minutes in prayer. I knew before coming here that I needed to get back to the basics of living out my faith.
Despite my shortcomings in the spiritual discipline department, God seemed to have a message for me today. We talked about knowing our purpose- why we do things, what we are supposed to be doing for God and learning to keep our focus. I am often tempted to stray from the path I'm on and dabble in other things or help in other areas, but sometimes my helping can be detrimental to the plan God has for my life. If God wants me working on plan "A" and I stop to help out with someone's plan "B", it could be a problem if it takes away from the passion, time and energy I spend on plan "A". I could wind up spread too thin and therefore be unable to fulfill the plan God had for me!
This conversation struck a cord with me today. The problem is that the things that pull us away from the path we are on are often not bad things. It's not always clear that we should not invest our time and energy in something- especially if it's a good cause. That's where I believe I need to learn discipline and receive discernment from God. Just because something is good does not mean that it's in His plan for me to do it. That may be someone else's calling!
Ann Voskamp's blog also talked about this today. She used the analogy of a strawberry plant. In order to gain a greater harvest later in the season, one must pluck off the first blossoms. It seems almost counterintuitive! Say no to something now in order to pull in a greater harvest later? But for me today, this makes all the sense in the world.
I now need to sit and do the hard work of deciding what parts of my busy life are not important to the goals I know God wants me to work towards. What good things will I need to cut out because they take away from the energy I need for God's good things? These are the questions I need to consider and pray about. But I got the message.